It’s Time

Last month this blog celebrated its 11th birthday.

That’s a lot of words.

If I’ve learned one thing in all that time, it’s that the people who read these words are gracious, kind, supportive and funny. I am grateful for everyone who came here, whether they commented or not. Thank you.

One thing I’ve noticed over the years is that my illness moves in circles. I cycle through the highs and lows, despair and hope. I give up, then start a new search for anything that can temper the suffering or open my heart. The spiral around and around continues, and I find that I’m repeating myself here more often.

Eleven years ago, I had a lot to say. Words spewed out of me. I told my story. I promised to tell the truth, and I have to the best of my knowledge. The truth today is that I don’t have many words left. At least no new words.

This blog gave me a platform to share my journey as someone with a mental illness. It gave me a place to “publish” the fan fiction I loved to write and the art that helped me stay sane (enough). It gave me a community and a support system I could never imagine. It has been a gift and a joy.

And its time is done.

The domain name has been renewed for another year, so aminddivided will stay open to visitors for another year. After that, I think it fades into the internet afterlife.

Come visit me on Facebook. Or my Etsy shop (see the sidebar). I’ll still be around, doing what I’ve always done, continuing on that never-ending spiral.

In Gratitude,

Sandy

Ten Years Blogging

Gosh, it seems I’ve been indulging myself on this blog longer than ten years. Maybe life with bipolar disorder is like dog-years. Or maybe the rift in the Space/Time continuum is actually in my head. Must talk to The Doctor about that.

I seriously thought about closing out A Mind Divided. I’ve told my story, shared my process, tried to wait until the Lesson was Learned before posting. It felt like there was nothing new to report, just recycling the same ups and downs. And I was in a long mixed-state episode, which makes me want to quit everything.

But then, I met a new bipolar friend, and I was reminded that our journey is all we really have to share. My posts may be numbingly repetitious to me, but to him (and maybe others) it’s new. Maybe helpful.

Going through a three-week episode and coming out the other side is part of the Long Journey. I know from experience that today is all I have, so I must make the best of it. I have a few moments to make amends and repairs (I’m sorry I yelled and threw pillows at you, Sissy), to pick up pieces that got left behind (reschedule the dentist appointment I forgot), to allow the art that wants to be made.

Mostly, today is for remembering who I am. I am not my illness. I am not alone. I am not the distorted, negative thoughts my illness conjures up. I am alive, and grateful, and surrounded by kindness and support. I am remarkable.

And, so, A Mind Divided continues.

Never Give Up. Never Surrender.

 


Never Give Up. Never Surrender. —Galaxy Quest

Never Give Up. Never Surrender.

 

 

Never Give Up. Never Surrender. —Galaxy Quest

Floating a Little


 

• Post Title and Inspiration:

Mary Oliver — Still, what I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled–To cast aside the weight of facts–And maybe even to float a little above this difficult world.

Floating a Little


(just sayin’)

 

• Post Title and Inspiration:

Mary Oliver — Still, what I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled–To cast aside the weight of facts–And maybe even to float a little above this difficult world.

Floating a Little



 

• Post Title and Inspiration:

Mary Oliver — Still, what I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled–To cast aside the weight of facts–And maybe even to float a little above this difficult world.

Floating a Little


 

• Post Title and Inspiration:

Mary Oliver — Still, what I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled–To cast aside the weight of facts–And maybe even to float a little above this difficult world.

Floating a Little

 

• Post Title and Inspiration:

Mary Oliver — Still, what I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled–To cast aside the weight of facts–And maybe even to float a little above this difficult world.

Floating a Little


(Click on the photo to get a closer look)

 

• Post Title and Inspiration:

Mary Oliver — Still, what I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled–To cast aside the weight of facts–And maybe even to float a little above this difficult world.

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