Switching the Message

I am changing as the world changes.  My world kaleidoscopes inward, spiraling smaller and smaller.  Some days, it scares me.  Some days, I’m content.

Lately, I find little desire to create.  The art I made before holds little meaning or the kind of depth this changing requires.  Some days that scares me.  Some days, I’m content.

What soothed and distracted me before has lost its power.  I am left alone with my brain—the labyrinths and dark pits.  Some days they scare me.  Some days, I’m content.

I need a new banner, a new battle cry, because this—all this—feels like a battle.  But more like the battle a chick wages to emerge from her egg shell.  Something new is being birthed—in me, in the country, in the world.

I can’t choose between these two:

Never give Up. Never Surrender. —”Galaxy Quest”

Oh, wonder! How many goodly creatures are there here! How beauteous mankind is! O brave new world, that has such people in ‘t! —William Shakespeare

So, I choose both—the common sourced from silliness and the erudite sourced from genius.  Something new will shake out from their pairing, something with flavors of fear and acceptance, I’ll wager.

And I am willing.  Still on the Adventure.

11 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. kirizar
    Jul 24, 2020 @ 14:18:45

    I think your work (pictured with this post) is definitely reflective of the time we are living in: a much darker, hard to interpret present that seems to flicker with ancient curses and plagues. Not sure whether that’s what you were going for, but that’s what I see when I look into the dark landscape of your mind.

    I think I’m feeling more poetic of late. Everything is dripping with symbolism and over-emotionalism. You are lucky I have alliterated all over you. I hope you feel the gratitude.

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  2. Kiki
    Jul 24, 2020 @ 15:37:46

    That’s my girl. I wonder, dear Sandy Sue, if – on the whole – you’re able to give some weight to the ‘days you’re content’. THAT might help you to swim or trudge through the other sort of days.
    But then, even I, with no unsurmountable problems and woes (just the usual crap like being unable to sell our house in France and having the last cent in that project, or getting blind rather sooner than later, etc) find myself quite often in a situation where I wonder: And what now?! I’m of a happy disposition but all the ‘manure’ I read about daily (and mostly in your blessed country) could give the creeps to the strongest person there is.
    In any case, hang on in there – you’ll make it If in doubt, go for the rather intellectual route, not necessarily the silly one – yoou need challenges!

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  3. Marcy Erb
    Jul 24, 2020 @ 17:45:01

    I am really inspired by the “scratched film” quality of these two pages – the unease, the tension is palpable.

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  4. Writer Lori
    Jul 25, 2020 @ 04:19:55

    Celebrating your bravery and perseverance, Sandy! 💕

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  5. Live & Learn
    Jul 25, 2020 @ 13:01:06

    Plow on Friend. Plow on.

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