Once Again, Thankful

I love my blog.  I never came here to do anything except tell my story—whatever that might mean.  I never expected to find deep connections.  I never expected to touch so many lives.  Or to be touched by so many.  The only conditions I placed on my posts were to tell the truth and to wait long enough to know what the truth might be in a given situation.

Keeping this space for almost eight years means it has also become my memory.  Electroshock not only eliminated 2006 and 2007, but continues to burn holes in the process that changes short-term into long-term memory.  I stopped fussing about that long ago.  Being forced to live in the Now is a pretty decent way to live.

As I think about making some sort of journal/tribute for Henry, though, I mourn all the stories I’ve forgotten, all the little details, the ways he, Emmett and I became a family.  So, when I sit down to write about him, I start with what I notice now.  This morning I wrote about how quiet the house is without him.  That thought led to another and another, stitching together fragments of memories into a surprising string of delight and appreciation.

And I come to my blog, where Henry’s stories remain clear and available.  I took more pictures of the cats so I could illustrate those stories.  How grateful I am to have this reliquary!  Who knew how smart I was in 2011 to fiddle around with WordPress?

As Emmett and I rearrange ourselves around and within the space that was Henry, I’ll keep coming here to share our truths.  Today, Emmett is soaking up the morning sun in the Alpha chair.  When I came home from yoga (noticing the silence instead of Henry’s irritated greeting), and saw Emmett basking, I took pictures.  This is an important moment for him, for us, for our life now.

The sun and the silence.  And the Adventure Continues.

(This song by the Wailin Jennys has always felt like Henry to me—his energy, his personality—so I share him with you in a slightly different way.)

7 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Kiki
    Dec 17, 2018 @ 13:45:45

    I slowly discover you and I’m impressed with the ways you handle your life and your health issues. ANY pet is a huge improvement in our life and Henry was no exception. With your photos to help you remembering this is a great way to ‘help you helping yourself’…. I wish you much success and little sadness!


  2. Live & Learn
    Dec 17, 2018 @ 15:44:08

    I couldn’t have said it better than Kiki. Bravo Sandy.


  3. Val Boyko
    Dec 18, 2018 @ 06:38:56

    This is beautiful Sandy. May you both enjoy basking in the winter sun


  4. Littlesundog
    Dec 18, 2018 @ 07:57:30

    Beautifully written, Sandy. 2011 was the year I started my blog, to document my life on this little piece of land – the same year Daisy deer came into my life. Lots of important connections that year… so happy you are my friend. You can’t imagine what an inspiration and mentor you’ve been to me all of these years.


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