Another Train


So, nobody said I was particularly wise.

In my desperation to tame the Binge Eating Disorder beast, I regularly cycle around to doing stupid things—things I know in my adipose-caked heart won’t work.  Like diets.  But when an authority figure (aka my new doc) blamed all my physical woes on obesity, and my trusted nurse practitioner suggested a ketogenic diet, I jumped like water in a skillet of hot bacon grease.

I learned two things:

  1. A ketogenic diet made my gut unhappy in violent ways.
  2. I will binge on anything, so changing the type of food doesn’t change the behavior one iota.

So, now I’m back to mindfulness and paying attention to my triggers.

All this food-stress didn’t help my bipolarness.  I’ve been roiling, inside and out.  My thinking is still in desperation mode, so I need to be careful not to jump on every thought-train that pulls into my station.  Another train will come.  And another.  Sooner or later, this anxiety and agitation will shift.  The urge to hop a train out of town will ease.  Eventually, I’ll be able to leave the station and go home.

But, I’ve got this ticket in my hand…

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10 Comments (+add yours?)

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  2. David Kanigan
    Jul 28, 2017 @ 19:02:47

    sorry, here’s to a calmer gut.

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  3. Elaine GREEN
    Jul 28, 2017 @ 22:36:23

    Hi dear heart. I just finished reading you new posts. You are amazing. And sounds like you are navigating your way to some opportunities for healing as best you can. I think of you often and sure hope you are heading toward the end of the tunnel and that you can see the light is not far away… Sending love
    Laney

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  4. Dave Proudfit
    Jul 29, 2017 @ 03:32:33

    Great post. Keep up the great work friend. You are strong and brave.

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  5. Littlesundog
    Jul 29, 2017 @ 08:43:34

    Isn’t this what life is continually about? What fits for us and what doesn’t. I love how it never takes you long to have understanding about what works and what doesn’t and why. Hang in there, friend. Take the train south, I have an orchard of healing and nourishing foods to offer. 🙂

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  6. pegoleg
    Jul 31, 2017 @ 11:56:05

    I don’t even know what a ketogenic diet is, but, frankly, I never trust diets. We know the “secret” – eat less, move more. It’s just so, damn tough!

    Hope you only get on trains leading to happy, peaceful places.

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