Beltane

Mixed-Media collage art

Back when I was a Ministerial Guide at Lake Harriet Spiritual Community, I was blessed to be able to celebrate all the holidays of the pagan calendar in community.  I partnered with amazing, talented people to create rituals which drew on ancient tradition and current events.  We used play, dance, music, sacred space, meditation, activities of creation and inner work to mark the holidays as meaningful moments in time.

Part of the Beltane celebration is about bringing together the Masculine and Feminine energies in the act of creation.  Beltane taught me the most about holding the creative energies higher, not letting them sink down into my personality and manifest as sexuality.  I could do it back then.  I could hold a container for others with that energy, and keep it sacred.  I could help folks who were confused about their longings and passions.

But as my illness ramped up, my own sexual compulsions pushed me into dangerous situations and drove my risky behavior.  I might have been able to hold a container for others, but I couldn’t do it for myself.

Beltane reminds me of that past.  But, it also offers me comfort.  Just like my compulsive eating and spending, this symptom of my illness can be tamed if I work at it.  I can step outside the desire and longing, unhook from the fantasies, turn around and simply look at them.  I am more than those things.

There is a part of me that lives in abundance, a part of me that eats only when hungry, and a part of me that welcomes passion as a path to creativity.  This is the community I gather around me today.

I am the Priestess and the Horned God. I am the Sacred Wood where they unite.  I am the Cycle unending.

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11 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Kana Tyler
    May 01, 2012 @ 08:31:06

    a Blessed Beltane to you! 🙂

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  3. Kathryn McCullough
    May 01, 2012 @ 10:32:57

    Coming from such a Christian background, it’s strange to me that paganism feels so compelling–so appealing. Love this post, Sandy.
    Hugs,
    Kathy

    Reply

  4. ManicMuses
    May 02, 2012 @ 04:56:13

    Blessed Be, Sandy!

    Reply

  5. pegoleg
    May 02, 2012 @ 09:33:29

    I love the juxtaposition in your collage – made me both think and giggle.

    Reply

  6. littlesundog
    May 12, 2012 @ 08:43:24

    Love the art piece… stunning color and design – hilarious. Your words are poetry to me.

    Reply

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